The inside feeling

"why am i still feeling this?
how would i believe that he only likes me?
oh...jealousy.
why can't you go away?
everyday i feel lifeless
thinking that he is happy with the other girls.
awwww...trust is part of commitment
but if i tell him that you don't feel good about it
i'm gonna be the evil one...
then i need to be quiet and just accept what he wants.
i am not special but i do love him.
i thought of one thing... maybe i should start meeting other people
and just do the same thing of what he does
so i could relate to everything
and make everyone a part of my life
hoping that everyday they say hi and give me a hug
give me gifts and sweet words
listen to their stories everyday and wait till they get online...
but... i don't feel like i am secure if i do that.
i only want him everyday
i have no time for others
i just have hi and goodbye.
but with him....it feels like i just wanna stay
just with him...right by his side.
but now...i need to accept that he's the other way around.
i hope i could give him all the time that he wants from them
but men always needs more....
but i am still here...wishing that he will understand
because he said he understands.... girls than boys"
put a bullet in my head =(